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It’s so funny that November seems to be the month that so many find what they are thankful for, while many live to be thankful all year round, November is the perfect month to simply remind yourself what it is you are truly thankful for. I have a lot to be thankful for, I firmly believe I am blessed and have so much to live for. With that being said, I also have a high level of demands on me these past couple of weeks that have caused extra stress. My brain is so fried that I can barely keep focused on one conversation let alone anything else. That is why my blog posts have been few and far between, it’s also the busy season with products to be showcased for the holiday shopping season. I am excited to be able to share so many awesome products this holiday season with you all, but the writing up of them all is taking longer than planned. Hopefully this week I will have all reviews scheduled and my holiday gift guide page completed for you to see what wonderful products you should get this holiday season!

Raising a child who has some mood disorder going on, a hyperactive five year old and a tween girl who is going through all those hormone changes makes life challenging. Combine those three facts with me working from home and my middle child’s medication being not quite right, then add two kids who I love like my own every other weekend, well, you can see how one would be a little bit “toss my hands in the air” feeling from time to time. Don’t get me wrong, I love my life and I truly am blessed but I am also human, I have a limit and like my Dad noted to me, I am not good at taking time for myself. I don’t know why, but it’s just hard for to me stop and breath for 15 minutes alone each day. I am just so go go go that I neglect my own needs and self from time to time.

I plan to be sure to let myself have some time each day, in complete silence to recoup because right now my fighting power has to be strong, I am dealing with a medication add on to what my son was already on and possibly lowering the med he was on if the new secondary medication helps. While this is great news, because anti pyschotic medications have bad long term effects on his body, it’s still difficult as it fills me with worry while I watch to ensure side effects are not serious for this medication. Also, while it takes a couple of weeks for the new medication to even be in his body enough to determine if it’s helping, his mood switches are there going up down and side ways. It’s no wonder that most days my head is spinning, being the primary caregiver for a child with a mood disorder that medication isn’t helping right now, its hard. That is a small word. it’s extremely difficult, beyond anything I have ever experienced prior to being a Mom to this wonderful boy.

Today I am simply trying to remind myself that no matter how much has been piled on my plate this month, that I have three amazing children, each carry a special place in my heart. All three children are doing wonderful in school; the oldest has high honor roll this quarter, the middle child has what would compare to honor roll in higher grades and my youngest is where he needs to be for Kindergarten {they don’t really have many grades per say for a child who is still practicing some school skills}.

Everything is wrapped up in a ball and thrown hard at my face each day this month, but I keep swinging because I am strong! I can survive this and so can my family because we are strong when united. Just like the United States of American; united we stand, divided we fall.

Thank you for listening, reading and leaving comments. You  may not realize how much a comment from someone warms my heart, it makes me realize that I am not alone, that I am talking to someone, that people listen and people do care. I thank you, you and you, for simply being there!

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Written by brandyellen

Brandy is a born and raised New Hampshire resident who loves being a Mom to three wonderful children. When Brandy isn't writing, she is working part time as an Administrative Assistant. Author, with her daughter, of Positive Girl - The Power of Your Thoughts Question about this post or something found within it? Read my Disclosure Policy as well as Terms of Use.

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  1. trisha (24 comments)

    I think that is all you can do…not just remind yourself that your life is good, but to live it. We get so caught up in what has to be done next, our feelings, our thoughts, that we forget the great! I hope to see you relax and take it all in this season.


    • brandyellen (381 comments)

      Thanks Trisha. I need some reminders is all, maybe one reminder will stick and I will relax. I miss my silly happy me, but I know it’s simply hidden. What’s hidden can be found :-)

  2. Rosey (1066 comments)

    I like the ball and bat metaphor. I do that too, keep swinging even when it’s coming at my face. At least we’re taking action, right? :)

    You do have a lot to be thankful for, I see it all of the time and I love that you appreciate it. I feel the same, my kids are my blessings, and they’re huge (the blessings, not the kids, lol). :)