One thing I have worked hard to do in my life is to stay true to myself. I know what I need and what I don’t need, and I have to work to keep that. You see, sometimes I get lost among the desire of having others be pleased, having others be proud of me; you know how that can go. After a while of realizing that I am working to please others, find gratification from others, and not my own self, I step out of that path and start fighting for what I need.
I have found that I am always successful in life when I follow my heart, my instincts and what I know to work well for me. You see, I started working full time and for some reason that was taking away from the balance. I was more broke working full time than I was working part time plus my business from home. I couldn’t comprehend it. That made zero sense, yet each day I woke up and did my eight hour shift, came home and was so utterly drained both financially and emotionally that I could barely focus on any business.
My blog has decreased in traffic. My mind wasn’t able to think straight. I felt like I was slowly losing myself and to boot, if I kept going that route, I would sink financially. No freaking way! I had to make change. I went to Dollar General with the family and purchased a wall hanging that says, “be the change you want to see” and hung it in my bathroom. This is a place where I can see the sign each day. Finally, after nearly sinking into depression again, I spoke with my boss. I had to let him know that full time just wasn’t working for me. I need balance. Daycare is way too expensive and I had less money working eight hour days.
After looking at my business income, I realized the amount I was making working eight hours days was not even making even from what I ultimately lost during that time from my business. Now I know speaking to my boss was risky, you know, he could have said nope sorry you have to stay full time. He could have said nope sorry you have to leave. It could have gone in so many directions, but I found my confidence and knew I had to be honest. One thing I have learned in life is being honest to who you are and what works for you, usually pays off.
The conversation went relatively well and now I am back to working part time as admin assistant again; my day is balanced well between the admin work for a steady biweekly paycheck, the at-home business getting built up again and raising my kids. I started today for the first day of part time and I am looking forward to positively changing my future; as I always do. The person I am requires a balance, without balance I start going back downhill. I refuse to let myself sink downhill, I must keep climbing up while I work on creating my own little success story for all to hear.
Here’s to you standing firm and being honest with your own inner self, no matter the situation!