Even my closest of friends will tell me “cut the crap with your positive attitude preaching, it doesn’t work” and I just shrug it off, because obviously they are having a bad day or they just truly believe positive thinking doesn’t really change life for the better. I get that my “a positive attitude can get you anywhere in this world” thinking may seen far fetched for some, while it makes sense for others and that is okay. I can agree to disagree with those who don’t believe positive thinking can truly change your life and make you more money.
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Today I decided to share a story with you all, to show why I am always sold on positive thinking, no matter what;
The world was crashing over me, bills piling up {they always are}, the thought of trying to come up with a ridiculous amount of money within a week seemed impossible. I was starting to feel depressed, I could feel my generalized anxiety disorder taking control of me and fear swept over me like a tornado sweeps over the land. How in the heck was I going to pay these bills to keep a roof over my children’s heads, to keep food on the table for them? How would they survive? What was I going to do? How did I get in so deep?
Those questions of what if and what will took over my mind big time and all I felt like doing was climbing back in bed under my down comforter that my Mom gave me years ago for Christmas and sleep. Sleep away everything. Ignore the kids needs, sleep til it all was better. The problem with that thought is that 1) it means depression was sinking in and 2) my kids wouldn’t be shown how strong their Mama truly is.
Whether you believe it or not, I do struggle with depression from time to time as well as some major anxiety issues, however, I am so extremely strong willed that I refuse to let either of those conditions take charge of me. I refuse to take medications for them because I have tried that in the past years, long ago, and they didn’t do a whole heck of a lot for me. I refused to let medications and this disease take charge of who I AM deep within my soul.
I woke up. I became more positive. I started to believe in myself, believe that I can make it. The individual, independent strong willed woman inside of me refused to give up hope, refused to let anything or anyone tell me I couldn’t do this. I refused negativity and accepted positivity. In that moment, my world changed and each time I choose positive over negative, the I CAN DO THIS attitude, I WIN. Every time. No question.
So while the bills were piling up, my heart was racing, tears falling from my eyes, I just did what we teach our kids to do – I THINK I CAN I THINK I CAN. And I could. And I did.
With a bit of faith, love, and the I can do this attitude – I made it and each month when the same scenario hits, or every other month, because after all I am self employed and that isn’t any sort of guaranteed weekly paycheck, I do it all over again. I fight off that anxiety, the depression, the oh my gosh how I can do this feeling and I WIN. I pay the bills, even if they are paid late, they get paid. I do what needs to be done to survive, to show my kids I am a fighter, I am strong and in turn I get something for myself – a sense of pride, a sense of accomplishment and the self encouragement to go fighting for all I believe in.
I am awesome. I am amazing and I can do anything I set my mind to. I firmly believe that you all can do the same, sure it may take you years to get this thought process down, it make take a long time for something positive to truly come into your life so that you see the changes this new positive attitude can create, but be patient because patience is a virtue my friends and I believe in you. I believe you CAN DO THIS. I believe you CAN SUCCEED. I believe you ARE STRONG.
You are so right! Attitude is everything and you are definitley showing your kids that you are a fighter and a strong mom. They may not realize it, but you’re teaching them everything they know to go out into the world someday and take charge the way you are.
This is an excellent post! I love that you’re walking the walk. If one thing comes through more than anything else in your posts, it is your positive attitude. Glad you’re making things happen in the way you want them to happen.
Happy Monday! 🙂