Yourself will Then Be Gold

Staring into a future unknown.

Longing for a glimpse.

A glimpse of what may be.

Decisions have been made.

Why is it so hard.

Even when they stare you in the face.

Second guessing is second nature.

We guess too much and don’t do enough.

Never fear the future.

Even when uncertain what it holds.

Stay true to yourself.

Yourself will then be gold.

**As a young child, of age 12, I started writing poetry as a means to cope with various troubles in my life. Today, as I face challenges yet again, I turn to poetry writing in hopes for resolution and inner peace.

Our First Family Beach Day

The kids and I headed out to Lake Sunapee Park the other weekend with our Summer gear in hand. My youngest and oldest were determined to hop in the lake, even though I knew it was cold, cold water. The oldest did end up jumping in twice, crazy girl!

Beach Days in NH Summer

I loved watching all three of the kids happily work together with their sand gear. They were building castles and moats and all this fun stuff together, with smiles upon their faces!

Daughter lets son bury her

Apparently the idea of sand gear wasn’t as appealing as burying your sister with sand at the beach. My daughter, bravely, laid down and set some ground rules to let her brother bury her in the sand. There was to be no sand above her chest and her arms were not to be covered, unless she said otherwise after they covered that part of her body.

Team work

Aj even got in on the fun of burying sissy and together the boys were able to fully bury sissy to the guidelines that she set forth. Sure, she got some sand in her face because the boys were digging like little puppies to get the sand to stay on her, but it was all in the name of good, solid family fun!

Buried in Sand

The picture above was the final snapshot before my daughter came out of that pile like a Hulk monster. It was a beautiful day and a fun family time was had.

Moments like these make me realize just how blessed I am.

Creative Parents Create Creative Kids {say that 10 times fast}

Color Time FunI love writing. I have loved writing since I was a young child and it has always helped me to get over various things in my past. My children love drawing. Each of my children know, a their own level and interpretation, what I do for a living from home and each are curious in their own way about it. I am blessed that I have creative children but I think it’s because they have a creative Mom. I must admit my children draw way better than me and have way better story title ideas than I do, but we have fun on rainy days together.

When there is no time to go outside or the weather sucks, the kids and I head into the living room to have some fun with paper, crayons and pencils. The kids love when I draw with them or color, honestly they just love that I am there, even if it’s me listening or watching them do their thing the paper, pencils and crayons.

I had a blast on this particular day, shown in pictures, because my sons wanted to make a book. I didn’t have staples left for my stapler so I had to get creative… use my three whole puncher and extra binders with printer paper to make them a “book”. The boys were so happy with me, because not only did I use what I could to make them a “book” to draw and color in, but I did it in a way that allows for them to add more paper down the road. They were happy!

My son, Aj, tried to convince me to draw a King because he wanted to write a story about a King with all These Weapons. My son Aj is the one who will always first try to get someone else to do something for him, however, with a little bit of encouragement and him realizing you are not doing things for him, he will do it and man did it come out rather good for a child who barely draws pictures at home.

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What do you think? Do you like Aj’s king drawing? More images form this day to come at Wordless Wednesday tomorrow! Stay tuned…

Just Not Feeling It

You can tell when I am in this rut, although I am not really feeling down and out because I have an amazing support system in my immediate life, I just feel different. It’s as if I am just in a daze, maybe it’s due to Papa passing and having to use all of my strength to be there for my oldest during her grieving process or maybe it’s simply because I have this tendency to make myself be stronger than I need to be.

The love in my life aka Lee, was telling me the other day that I do not have to be so strong all of the time, we all have a breaking point, we all have that one thing that puts us over the limit of what we can handle. I was also reminded that this man I love is my shoulder to cry on, he had zero issues with me crying all night long when I found out that Papa had passed. Did not matter that Papa is my ex boyfriends Dad, Papa to my daughter .. why? Because this man, Papa, was a part of my world, a part of my daughter’s world and Lee “gets that”. Lee is like my twin in many ways, but we are different enough to keep each other moving forward instead of getting stuck in a rut for too long.

Blah feeling

While I do not feel sad or down, I am just simply needing a moment or something, to breath, to cry, to write. Something. I am working on putting my finger on what it is I really need, but my work still needs to be done. So while writing on here is fun and therapy, there are reviews to be done, blog posts to be written and work to be completed for various freelance writing projects.

That is how it is. If I were to be a work outside of the home Mom, my job would require me to be back on game by now, I couldn’t sit and sulk and be in this blah state of mind. I would have to get up off of my butt and move forward. The other thing is, if I don’t whack out of this blah type personality or feeling, how am I showing my kids to move forward? That is what matters most, that I write to get things out of my head so I can be the role model I have always been for my kids.

While I am “just not feeling it”, I am “feeling”, I guess that is a good thing, right?!

The Fairy Hobmother has Visited Me

Fairy_hobmother_for_bloggersI am not talking about the tooth fairy that visited last night scrounging up change to place in my daughter’s tooth fairy box in exchange for her lost molar, no. I am talking about another amazing fairy, this is the Fairy Hobmother who visits blogs to sprinkle gifts to use for just spreading the belief in fairies.

Heck if I can believe in the tooth fairy at 31 years of age, I suppose a Fairy Hobmother is not that far fetched to believe in. So today I write about being visited by the Fairy Hobmother in hopes that I get sprinkled a little gift and other bloggers do too.

If you leave a comment on this blog post, as a blogger, you just may receive a visit too!

Most of you may or may not know, I will be moving from where I live now at some point here, after a year and a half of renting from my Mom the time has come for her to move back to this area with her husband and me to move on with my kids to our new “home”. I thank Mom for allowing me to stay here, while I paid for her mortgage as a way to assist me in getting back on my feet from a foreclosure. I think I have grown close to my Mom during this past year and a half and that is something I can walk away with being grateful for, among other things.

As I search around for a new rental one of the things that I really need to know is if there is a washer and dryer hook up at the new rental. I have three kids and let me tell you what, I certainly wish this Fairy Hobmother could not only sprinkle me with gifts, but make laundry magically disappear into dresser drawers too ;-)

When I move, I will need to purchase a cheap tumble dryer as a way to ensure my laundry never goes undone, piled to the ceilings in my new home.  Of course, if I don’t get a dryer or washer for my new rental home, I will just have to be a frequent visitor at the local laundry mat.

Now that I have sprinkled the love of the Fairy Hobmother to you all, I hope you will believe in fairies again and leave me a comment below telling me something that you wish a Fairy Hobmother would do for you!

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