Aggravation fills my blood every time I have to deal with these type of people … who are they? The type that will only be nice to you, go out of their way to help you and be your friend or close family member only if it has some benefit to them. The kind of people that give only to receive annoy me for one simple reason, they think that I don’t see what they are doing. It’s like they feel I am naive and never played these types of games in my past.
I hate to break it to everyone but I was not and certainly am not miss sweet and innocent by any means. I do not go out of my way to make other peoples lives miserable nor do I believe in revenge. I used to believe in revenge, holding a grudge and being a giver only if I were to receive something in return.
I now go out of my way to give and give no matter what is returned to me. I enjoy going out of my way to make other people smile, not be miserable. I get so annoyed with a lot of the people I have been friends with or even some family members who like to practice only being nice to me if it has some benefit for them. Although I should not let people like this annoy me, it is hard not to do. When I see myself as a giver and not a taker then see family members who are major takers it makes me wonder where in the heck did I get my giving genes from?
My answer to that question is easy, I trained myself to be a new person and it took about two years. Not to mention I do have a lot of giving people in my family, therefore it’s not fair to wonder where I get my giving genes from. Most of my family are givers and naturally very wonderful people who I love very much but those that are takers, my love for them is as strong but I often wonder what I can do to change them in the way I changed myself.