It all started when my son AJ was born, he always had trouble sleeping. The boy was born at 9lbs 5oz and came into this world happy yet different than my daughter. My son didn’t care too much for sleeping, well I should say if I remember correctly that the first few months were pretty good, it’s after that when the sleeping issues started, from there Baby K came along and he slept good but when placed into a bedroom with his brother … well AJ would wake him with his night time issues.

J and I felt that getting the boys in a larger room and working with them on sleep issues that our sleepless nights would be at an end … little did we know that my daughter would start to have troubles and be waking mid night, refusing to sleep because she quite simply can not do so. Yes welcome to my world, the world in which I haven’t sleep much in four years and reason being? Even if I did sleep when my kids slept I wouldn’t get much sleep so I figure why not work while they sleep and work I do.

I work all hours of the night, but I have been taking the time to listen to my body and if my body is ready to remove itself from the computer working life at 10pm, then I remove myself and relax the eyes. I have now been having trouble sleeping, which is so unlike me. I hope that soon I will find the resolution to my daughter’s troubles and hopefully find a way to ease her mind so she can get a good nights rest. For now I am just thankful that she sleeps well at her Dad’s house every other weekend and a couple nights a week.

Some nights I have tears in my eyes for fear that it’s something I have done wrong in raising her, because of course I am finishing that book I reviewed about mothers and daughters. My eyes have been opened to the way I have unknowingly been raising my daughter. One of the things is that I can’t bear to see tears in her eyes, especially when she’s having trouble sleeping. I am a huge fan of co-sleeping, well I co-slept with 2 of the 3 kids, single raising Miss Ki for three years I saw no harm in it and now she is 8 years old sleeping fine in her own room up until about two weeks ago. I question whether to let her sleep in my bed or just on a bed in my room, because when I did that during the first phases of her non-sleeping habit she slept just fine being in my room.

I have questioned, I have been compassionate, I have laid with her, I have counted to 100 with her, I have sung, and I have bent over backwards trying anything to find a resolution to the situation but alas I have not yet found a resolution. Meanwhile … those boys that have been sleeping pretty good & through the night for once?! Oh they are at it again and waking frequently …

Welcome to motherhood … now give me back my sleep!

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