Today I am going to talk about a person fictionally named Freddy, based loosely on a real life person … not named Freddy of course …

Freddy is your typical negative person who has to have others around him to please him, he must always have the best of everything and continuously spends more than he has. Due to him spending more than he has he must pick up a new relationship partner every so often because he continuously drains the one before them. Then when Freddy finally gets a good partner they use and abuse them until they have nothing more inside of them, they are dead to the world. A broken heart can change a person, you know?! Freddy doesn’t care, they continue on in their path of self destruction trying to bring along everyone they possibly can and boy did this used to upset me dearly. I watched as people came and went, I watched as a sad and lonely person who could not love themselves continuously tried to find love in money or relationships. Sad thing is I doubt Freddy will ever learn how to love himself no matter how much I had hoped he would. You see Freddy is a self absorbed person who appears to love himself and appears to be all together, little does the outside world know this person is a very evil person who has destroyed many peoples chance at a good life and continues to move on in the same direction, while still sitting up on his high horse as if he has done no wrong ever in his life and continues to blame his life on others.

Fast forward to current day ….

It took me many, many, many years to become the person I am today. I made a decision and I worked my butt off, stayed focus and became the person I wanted to be, or so I thought at the time. Years ago when I decided to be the person I am today I actually thought I would be some great person who never did anything wrong or always made the right decisions. What a silly thought that was! I know now that if I were to never do anything wrong or always make the right decisions my life would be so completely boring, I wouldn’t have a blog, I wouldn’t take a risk, I would be just plain Jane and that is not me, after all I do have some of my father’s genetics in me and them people are no where near boring!

When I write on here I am always preaching about how I never said I was perfect, so many people see that positive energy I hold inside of me and they talk so highly of me most times that I feel like maybe I am misleading some people. I mean I do make mistakes, I sometimes yell at my children, I sometimes give my kids a time out for something that may not have been worthy of a time out, I yell at my husband for no reason, and the most not so perfect thing I am famous for doing is venting in a way that makes the person listening feel like it’s their fault. I try to talk, I try to vent but it always comes out as if I am blaming that person which usually is not even close to what I was trying to say.

You see I am human, we are all born with some flaws and it’s how we choose to deal with the flaws we have that makes us better or worse off in this world. I know that when  my daughter says things like “there’s that positive Mom I know” or “I was thinking positive today Mom” that something I am doing with the person I am now is making an impression on my children, and that my friends is really all I care about … making a  positive impression on my children because after all, I saw what a negative parenting situation creates, the monster that used to be ME.