Give Me Energy

Raising three children under age seven is a challenge no matter what but throw in a middle child with what appears to be ADHD and mood disorder well you just plain have a major challenge. I have a huge level of patience with it comes to children, always have. Truth is I admire a child’s honesty as well as their thirst for knowledge. Children are simply amazing in my eyes, why do you think I had three of them?!

Some days are good, some days are great and then other days are a disaster. The days I consider a disaster are when my four year old is having his mood issues.  If I wake up to AJ being angry then I am prepared for the worse. I have never seen a child of such a young age act the way my AJ can. When AJ is in one of his “moods” as we call them, his eyes are different. These moods leave me staring into eyes that show AJ isn’t erally here. It’s as if he has blacked out and sometimes, just sometimes you can kneel down and whisper “focus AJ” in a sweet and loving voice to find he smacks right out of it and you see those loving eyes of a four year old.

The energy I need doesn’t necessarily stem from AJ’s destructive behavior but more so towards the pediatrics office.  You see AJ has had this anger problem since the day he was born, this combined with the sleeping issues he has are not seeming to cause any alarm in the pediatricians eyes. They want to wait until he is in school so he can get “coded”.

I need energy to fight for my son who has no voice of his own. I need to fight for my own family. Everyone in this household knows something is different, unique so to speak with AJ. With bi-polar and other mood disorders running predominantly in my extended family I’ve seen first hand what ignoring such a condition can do to a child, an adult and a family.

I just plain refuse to stop fighting for my son, will you help give me energy to find a solution for my son AJ?

Update- I would prefer to find a solution to his sleep issues, as the anger and aggressive has seem to fade slightly to a point where AJ’s mood changes are easier to handle as they are not as extreme for about the past four to five days. He is still not sleeping very well through the night.