It's been a while since I simply rambled about whatever I feel like and so…
This is my first week participating in 52 to Fabulous, I just love the positive ring to that, don’t you? I am forced to focus on my wants this week rather than my needs, which I will admit is very hard for me. I haven’t been one to ever focus on anything I simply want, it’s always been about my family’s needs, but I can do this!
I have a picture of me in my varsity cheerleading outfit from at least ten plus years ago and I find myself thinking back to the size 8 I was then and oh how fat I thought I was. Now here I am a size 15 and I don’t feel all that fat, but I do long to be back in that size 8. After having three children and just two of them exactly 2 years and 6 days apart my body has certainly not been happy and it’s decided to slack off a bit. So I really want to lose 85lbs, don’t really care what size that puts me in, as long as it gets my BMI back down to a healthier level.
I want to be financially independent, this isn’t a bad thing. Some woman love being that stay at home mother while the husband works outside of the home but I enjoy being able to feel confident regardless of how hard my husband works knowing that I can pay my own bills should something happen to our relationship or to him while he’s out working. I want to know that no matter what I am financially free from anyone, it’s just something I long to feel again.
I want to be more focused on potty training my son who turned 3 in August and doesn’t have any interest in using the big boy potty. I admit it’s my fault for not focusing all possible efforts on encouraging him and I want to make the encouragement of potty time a focus for him during the day while I am home with him. I have slacked because quite simply changing a diaper with this defiant three year old is easier than trying to talk him into shooting cheerios in the toilet bowl.
I want a touch PC, I love the new HP one and I would bow down to all if that was something I could have in my pretty little hands! I think the HP Touch PC would be a fantastic addition to my small home as a way to save space, not to mention I am sure it’s way more energy efficient than my current beast of a custom PC.
I want to learn to love the little things again, to love everything around me and to focus on that love in a way that allows me to laugh again at all the little things. I long to laugh so hard I cry while crawling around with my children. I have allowed the stress of other situations get in the way of Mommy and children laughter time and it’s time I laughed again.
I want to remember to exercise on the Wii Fit and EA Sports Active every day to ensure I lose that 85lbs this year!
There you have it, I know I am not super creative but man it was hard to come up with “wants”.