One thing I know for sure is that it is usually a lot easier to focus on what irritates us during our long days at home or at work. I used to be one that focused on all that plagued me during the day and I was also a very angry girl who’s self esteem was profoundly low. One day I woke up and was determined to think more positive and move forward towards a better life with a new beginning. I couldn’t ever have met that lovely day without my past, so I shall leave it there, but this day in my life created a beneficial future for myself and anyone who graced my presence.
At 1am on Wednesday morning I was in the shower to help get my mind off of life and all that negativity that had been swallowing up my creativity and positive mindset when it dawned on me that after all that has happened to break my heart this year, I still love my husband, like really, truly love him.I know I have been so up and down about our marriage lately, but truth be told I don’t know many men who would come home from a hard day at work just to go sit in the kids room and play with them, break up their fights and allow their wife to sit on the computer for hours on end to get work done. I don’t know many men who would actually be happy for a new blog post idea or a new reader, I mean he really doesn’t 100% get blogging, but he sees how happy it makes me and in turn it makes him happier.
My husband has been my support system since day one, allowing me to pursue my dreams and being that person to vent to if I had a horrible day. My husband gets my positive thinking, he loves my positive thinking and when that positive smiling face went away about a year ago after some personal issues between the two of us, we have slowly drifted apart. He didn’t realize we were drifting apart, but I did and I told him. I told my husband over and over again that specific things need to happen in order for my heart not to get distant, things need to change because if not my heart will grow further away, my self esteem will diminish and my positive, happy smiling face will be no longer.
That day came and that day stayed, I mean it stayed for nearly a year and to be honest most days I am still living that heart broken day, but I have finally pulled myself up to the best of my ability and slowly but surely my mind is focusing on what I know I love, what I know won’t let me down, what I know in my heart is my passion … being a Mother, being a Blogger and being a Virtual Assistant. So when your time gets tough and you see that negative, down right horrible feeling creeping in, try to do something before it takes over, because negative energy sucks more life out of you than positive energy. I am here to prove it, it happened to me and I have yet to recoup from it.
Be safe, be happy and be well on this fine New Year’s Eve.
Make it a Happy Day!