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In case you couldn’t tell my mind and emotions have been like a roller coaster ride lately! I went from not wanting to be with my husband because reality is we have grown apart … well I guess I have grown apart, he still feels the same. We are best friends, but I still question what my heart knows is best to do for us … I keep going up and down … from wanting to be a stay at home mom to wanting to work outside of the home and build my resume back up again to wanting to work part time to not wanting to work at all other than this blog and my virtual assistant business.

I seriously feel so out of it, I could blame the cold Winter NH weather, the shorter days, the longer nights, the lack of sleep, the busy days with my children, I could blame a lot of things. In reality all I can blame is me, I am not myself lately and so I started taking St John’s Wort about a week ago to try to promote positive thinking again. My marriage is good, as far as we get along but every time one little thing stresses me out or gets piled on my to-do list I have been taking it out on my husband. Lately I can’t find ambition to play with my children, my daughter and I are growing further apart it seems and I just don’t get why I can’t find my happiness again. Now don’t give up on me and my happiness because I know deep down in my heart I have been here before and this too shall pass but for now I sit around wondering what in the world my family is going to do if I can’t find a way to get passed this up and down emotional roller coaster ride I am taking myself and my family on.

I am reading all over that a lot of others are feeling this way and so I just hope it’s the weather or “that time of year”, luckily I have a supportive husband who loves me dearly and three wonderful children who can try their best to tickle me like crazy until I crack a HUGE smile and laugh so hard I start crying!

Make it a Happy Day!

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Written by brandyellen

Brandy is a born and raised New Hampshire resident who loves being a Mom to three wonderful children. When Brandy isn't writing, she is working part time as an Administrative Assistant. Author, with her daughter, of Positive Girl - The Power of Your Thoughts Question about this post or something found within it? Read my Disclosure Policy as well as Terms of Use.

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  1. Dawn (106 comments)

    Hang in there friend…It’s tough sometimes, but be sure to surround yourself with good music, good smells…Anything and everything that promotes good feelings.

    Give yourself a break…and give yourself some time.

    .-= Dawn´s last blog ..Time to take care of buisness… =-.

  2. Chrisy Bates (2 comments)

    It could possibly be the “season” for the mood swings that we all have to deal with from time to time. Christmas stress, although normal for most, can be more tramatic to others. I hope you can find the peace you need to
    .-= Chrisy Bates´s last blog ..Merry "SITSMAS" =-.

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  4. tina (22 comments)

    yes, oh yes….i feel the same way lately!! and i too have read alot of similar posts ( did a good Bitch n Moan post on my blog too ) let me know if the St John’s wort works , i NEED something!!

    glad things are looking up, hoping after the stresses of the holidays it will get even better :)
    .-= tina ´s last blog ..Six Word Saturday =-.

  5. blueviolet (261 comments)

    It does cycle from time to time and weather can certainly play into it. One thing somebody told me is to replace your lightbulb with a full spectrum lightbulb. It simulates sunlight and really does help improve the mood. (If you have a light with several bulbs in it, just replace one of them.) Try that! :)